Saturday, August 28, 2010

Our latest decision....

As many of you know, the door to adopt from Rwanda was shut.  It is not that the door will not reopen, it will one day, but for now it is shut.  When I heard the news I felt like the Lord really came over me with a sense of calmness and peace.  I knew He was in control and I needed to seek His will not mine.  My husband and I along with many people who love and care for us so deeply got into prayer about what to do.  Within 2 days it was crystal clear to both Kevin and I what our next step would be.

It's so strange to me why God will put you on one road and then take you to a dead end.  Sometimes I think we choose that road and God puts the dead end there to get us on the right road.  Other times I think your flexibility and faith is being tested.  Not knowing what God's actions were with this, we are nevertheless, on a new road.

As Kevin and I got into prayer, we reflect a lot on why we choose Rwanda in the first place.  We talked about it and both agreed it was because we wanted an African American girl and we wanted to go where the need was the most. 

We were naive to the fact there that was such a need right here in our own backyard.  We ignorantly thought that the children here may be without a mother or father but they were ok in foster homes.  We soon found out that there is a HUGE need for African-American, bi-racial and hispanic kids to be adopted here.  We also found out that families tend to go over seas to adopt black children but do not like to adopt them directly from the US.  Not sure if people are afraid of the health or lifestyles of the birth mother here or if there is part of the "status" to say you went overseas OR that God is just truly leading someone to go there.  We felt we were being lead to go there.  We know we want to be involved with missionary work there in the future and it seemed like a good fit.  The agency told us the adoption with Rwanda was a pretty fast and inexpensive adoption (relatively speaking).  They told us it would be 1 year to 1.5 years. Since this news of the hold on adoptions, time frame will be very different and as many of you know our family is structured with kids all 2 years apart.  One serious concern for us was messing with that and I am truly looking forward to going back to work, which I will not do until my youngest is 2. 

As we prayed so many things were getting revealed that pointed us to stay here and adopt.  So that is what we have decided to do.  We have decided to go with our old adoption agency and start the process with them.

For those of you that would like to adopt, they are a wonderful agency that has told me less than a year to wait for Nevaeh.  And knowing the agency from working with them before I trust them to be truthful and up front about everything.  If you would like information about them just email or call me!

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